For as long as I can remember, I have dreaded the holidays. And by dread, I mean I get anxious, crabby, stressed, and fail to find any type of joy in it. And truly miss the real meaning.
I am a procrastinator by nature. I do my best work in the 11th hour. BUT, I am a planner. So, that doesn't really make sense, right?
But lately, things have changed. It may have something to do with the fact that for the first time in 8 years I don't have a super-needy child (or two). Taya has grown up a lot since starting Kindergarten, and both girls are good helpers…my "Mom stress" is so much less these days. But, I don't totally buy that either because I was stressed during the holidays before I ever became a mom, or a wife. It definitely doesn't have anything to do with my stress-free job…(loved the 5 day break, and have no desire to go back tomorrow…). Dave and I have been talking a lot lately about the good place we are in, so that could be it. It could be that I feel like I am in a good place with my Church and my relationship with God, or that I found a new work out place that I love…whatever it is, if feels SO MUCH BETTER than it has in the past.
For the first time EVER, I have ALL of my Christmas shopping done. With NO stress of shopping. I have been planning presents for a while and have picked up things here and there, or got it online and had it shipped to the neighbors…it feels great. I have gotten most of what is needed to make presents for teachers…and it is DECEMBER 1st!!!!!
I have started planning Merrick's birthday party and have a venue almost 2 months early!!! WHAT?!?!?! (Zumba, YAY!!!)
So the usual holiday blah? This year it is somewhat unusual. In the most awesome way!