This ones for G... (oh, and maybe my sanity)

So, this is my first blog.  Well, kind of.  But, for all intents and purposes, it is my first real, live, shareable blog.  And it is for Gina.  But, for myself too.  Because, right now, it may be the only thing to keep me sane...

I am fully aware that G is the ONLY person likely to read this.  And that too is OK, cause she knows my ins, outs and crazies, and she STILL loves me.  And lets be honest, she already knows most of it anyway, so, she may be too bored to read it.  :)

As we speak, my blood pressure is going down and I am successfully blocking out the "goings on" with my children.  It is one of my "single parent" nights and the girls are doing every. single. thing. they can do to drive me nuts.  This is a normal when Dave is gone.  I really think they plot to drive me crazy.  So, tonight I decided that this may have to be my night to start "blog therapy".  And the truth is, I already feel better.

But the problem with this type of therapy is that it could have a stressful effect (affect?).  I am not so creative.  I don't have a cool enough vocabulary to sound all awesome like other people.  My life is pathetically boring, and all I really have to talk about is my kids, my kids some more, how I am a high maintenance parent, my kids some more, how I get stressed out a lot, my kids some more, how I don't always agree with Merrick's teacher, and oh yeah, did I mention that I talk about my kids a lot?  I have no (time for) hobbies, and I support all of the activities that Dave participates in.  I am a little jealous that he gets 3 mini-vacations nights out a month with no kid responsibilities, and secretly dream that someone will offer to watch our kids for a weekend so that we can get away like everyone else we know.  Come to think of it, I secretly wish that HE would offer to watch the kids for a weekend and arrange for me and some of my friends to have a little getaway.  (That does happen in books in real life, right??)

While I am on the subject of vacations and getaways, yeah...  haven't seen one of those since 2005.  Literally.  We (as in all 4 of us) did take a mini-vacay this summer, but aside from that, I can count on one hand the number of nights that I have spent the night away from both of my children since Merrick has been born, and 2 of those nights I spent with 100 4th graders, bugs, mice and raccoons, so not sure those really count.  I do fantasize about a girl trip to anywhere.  But, not sure that the guilt of putting all of the responsibility on Dave would even be worth it...

Another reason I wanted to try this blog thing is as a trial for another blog I am considering starting with my sister, but want to know what the heck I am doing before actually doing it.

So, that's it.  I have successfully blocked out my children's fighting behaviors, and they now appear to be playing nicely together.   I feel like I took a 15 minute mental getaway, which is nice, AND, I HAVE found it therapeutic to type a bunch of words on my computer that no one else really cares about, yet, I feel like I got something out of it... so, all in all, my first "public" blog was a success.

Maybe I will try this again.

Until then...